blurry me

wah lah today very scary sia.. today at the middle of the night suddenly so many aunties were screaming for joy... at 2:45 am leh.. i was scared out of my wits.. i live on the 12th floor... those living below me and including my aunt were screaming... i thought the building was going to collapse.. then i went out to e living room to find out that prashant tamang had won the indian idol.. he is a nepalese. my aunt was so happy that she threw her water bottle ( luckily not at my direction, anw it was empty) then i went back to sleep.. then i dreamt about my mom who is actually not anymore in this world.. that she came back to life. but it seemed as if she was lifeless cause in my dream she didnt talk, eat or drink. she would onli stare at the ceiling endlessly.... i wondered whether she was really alive.. then i woke up. at the library during evening clinic i wondered whether there was a meaning to this dream. cause i remember father say maybe it was better she passed away cause she was having asthma then to suffer everyday and the suffer may be endless.. i know my father did not mean that he wanted my mom to die.. just that he tot maybe it was better for my mom.. he is also sad tt mom is no more... i miss my mom.. my whole family. bro sis and dad in nepal. i am e only one in my family that is here...

oh my gosh!!! i am so damn tired!! three days no proper sleep. today i very de blur.

say so many things wrongly.. paiseh.....
morning: while doing SS practice paper, wrote my name, class and date on the wrong space....

After recess: ms janice yong was at e staircase waiting for 5N pupils to head up to AVA... i greeted her but with wrong name.
me to miss yong: good morning ms goy
miss yong: .... she didnt say anything as she did not hear me..

english period: wanted to ask mr francis how to do correction.. nearly called him mr lee at first time.. second time nearly called him mr loo...haha.
xuan and i kept laughing throughout the lesson.

english S3P: wrote my corrections wrongly time and again.. so irritated.after evening clinic: sat at e canteen to continue with work. daryl and marshely sitting in front of me..then when going home i said bye to marsh.. daryl said bye but i did not hear then he was like hey! then i was like oh sorry bye.. paiseh lor... very blur at tt moment also . haha.then came home bathe.. continued with work.. prepared dinner. ate and here i am now!! listening to music...