Confusion state

never blog for a few days ady. mum i miss you.... bro,sis and dad miss u tooo... miss my family so much. things for e last few days i guess was ok. still uncle is after me for my details for when i am going back..ya i am going back soon...in a month time... i dont like him at all. always talk to me in tt tone tt he is not happy at all.. tt's y dont like to see him. today.. well nth much to blog about... very tired. having headche,

i feel so lost in this path of life.. dont know where i am heading to and wat lies ahead of me.. i have fear of so many things.. so many questions run around in my head and this makes me feel more and more worried... i need answers to these questions.. anw i am so looking forward to 2mr's skool as i am really bored at home.. aunt says we are going to have noodles for dinner..!! I DONT WANT!! morning for breakfast also ate noodles.. reminds me of tt day in skool.. haha.. so funny. i suddenly have the craving for KFC... dont know why also.

i dont have too much time too stay in singapore.. i cant bear to leave.. anw gtg bathe and eat dinner.. will continue to update. bb

tiring day

Tired and sleepy. My day so far was ok... my poa and ss class clashed... so now on tues and thurs poa is on diffrent timeslot back to last year.. just a small group of us except sanjit. he under mr emery lim.. then later had phy. failed. expected. haiz.

trying to encourage myself to work hard.. well i have to. got evening clinic for three whole weeks but i tink it is good as it will make us discipline ourselves to study. the construction for e condominium so damn noisy sia... arrghh.. headache ah!!!! then had eng and chem ACT. 2dae also a bit blur.. intepretated so many things wrongly. did badly for my prelims. mr emery lim talked to me.. aiya.

tired lah. want to go sleep ady. nitex.

blurry me

wah lah today very scary sia.. today at the middle of the night suddenly so many aunties were screaming for joy... at 2:45 am leh.. i was scared out of my wits.. i live on the 12th floor... those living below me and including my aunt were screaming... i thought the building was going to collapse.. then i went out to e living room to find out that prashant tamang had won the indian idol.. he is a nepalese. my aunt was so happy that she threw her water bottle ( luckily not at my direction, anw it was empty) then i went back to sleep.. then i dreamt about my mom who is actually not anymore in this world.. that she came back to life. but it seemed as if she was lifeless cause in my dream she didnt talk, eat or drink. she would onli stare at the ceiling endlessly.... i wondered whether she was really alive.. then i woke up. at the library during evening clinic i wondered whether there was a meaning to this dream. cause i remember father say maybe it was better she passed away cause she was having asthma then to suffer everyday and the suffer may be endless.. i know my father did not mean that he wanted my mom to die.. just that he tot maybe it was better for my mom.. he is also sad tt mom is no more... i miss my mom.. my whole family. bro sis and dad in nepal. i am e only one in my family that is here...

oh my gosh!!! i am so damn tired!! three days no proper sleep. today i very de blur.

say so many things wrongly.. paiseh.....
morning: while doing SS practice paper, wrote my name, class and date on the wrong space....

After recess: ms janice yong was at e staircase waiting for 5N pupils to head up to AVA... i greeted her but with wrong name.
me to miss yong: good morning ms goy
miss yong: .... she didnt say anything as she did not hear me..

english period: wanted to ask mr francis how to do correction.. nearly called him mr lee at first time.. second time nearly called him mr loo...haha.
xuan and i kept laughing throughout the lesson.

english S3P: wrote my corrections wrongly time and again.. so irritated.after evening clinic: sat at e canteen to continue with work. daryl and marshely sitting in front of me..then when going home i said bye to marsh.. daryl said bye but i did not hear then he was like hey! then i was like oh sorry bye.. paiseh lor... very blur at tt moment also . haha.then came home bathe.. continued with work.. prepared dinner. ate and here i am now!! listening to music...

today was one such tiring and memorable day... too lazy to write. nitex.

another skool day...

hey!! today was not a bad day.. had poA paper 2 in e morning followed by dnt. went to design studio to find out that mr lee is actually sick.... then went to call sebast, vin and zy to go and see mr lee. saw pau and jerald along e stairs talking. then met waty along e way and i asked her to follow to tell them. just when we reach e canteen saw vin sitting down with his food. he so happy tt mr lee was on MC too bad he heard the first part only.. then i asked them to go and see mr lee then zy said i wait for him to go home first. vin said" u want me to carry my food to e studio ah?"
fortunately, they came be4 mr lee left.

then too lazy to do folio go downstairs to workshop. most doing practical so i went upstairs again. skali jerald came saying tt fauzy maybe saw e moderator then i quickly put away my folio. they moved into e workshop then later see aztually zy was mistaken. he scared me sia.

then i wanted to do the measurements of my artefact parts then mr andy asked me to do some of e things. i agreed naturally. then do do do... after a while zy they all went home and max came..YAY!! SO HAPPY!! FINISHED ARTEFACT!!! and then went canteen and came home. wanted to meet daryl but sorry i was busy aite. now back on my laptop. 2mr must pass up dnt folio and 2mr have dnt prelim!!!

normal day

Today... not a bad day.. science mcq prelim in e morning.. well i guess it was managable. then went for dnt..did a bit of folio mostly talked and listened to music lor.. then later wanted to go home.. met vin and waty, vin & i began to set off for home. we were outside e general office, after talking for a while, vin told us to go home 1st as mr lee had told him to wait then we discussed and decided to study poa in canteen. then, we saw mr lee coming in frm e gate then we run to e canteen. luckily he didnt come der. then we started talking.. jokes.. vin's "compo" was funny.. then later waty went home and after an hour vin studied for abt two min then went home. maya came at 4pm and sat in front of me. then after an hour went home, bath, help aunt cook dinner then eat and chatted with zy and dylan. tt zy asked me to view a website then i got really scared in e end cause it was scary.. and then talked to dylan... now in aus.. fun talking to him,... and now here i am on my laptop once more!! need to do some serious studying for poa 2mr. bet it's gonna be tough. anw i am worried for my sis, bro and dad. i dont know y.. i hope everythng will turn back to normal. i really do. an gotta sleep now. wanna wake up in e morning to study poa. nitez.