Freak!!

sigghhh...... i am going to freak out soon!!!!! why dont the try to understand what i am going through? when did i not inform tt i was sick? tt freak thinks it's so easy for me to go through this? does he even know wad i am going through?? i really feel like running away frm this house. it's my not my house anw. if u think u can threaten me by using my father's name, u are wrong. u see if i dont criticise u despite the fact u r elder than me. i dont care. u r lucky i didnt burst today or it would have been the worst day of ur life. i would have made quite a scene tt u would regret wad u said to me earlier. anw i tink my father will support me rather than support u. if my father supports u then i will go and die.


this is really not easy for me. last year nearing my "N" level just two days be4 my first "N" lvl paper, my mom passed away.. i managed to pass my "N" lvl.. now tt my "O" lvl is nearing, my sis is running into serious health problems.. am i a jinx or wad?? i need an answer to all these.. i dont know how much longer i can hold on.. i rather be in skool than to be at home.. tt's y i stay in skool 6pm to study rather than staying at home.. i am yearning for my mum everyday.. i see children with their mum.. i also wished she was still alive and with me.. i hide my sadness within me everyday.. trying to enjoy as much as my time with my friends in skool....but it will over very soon.. i will be going back to nepal forever at the end of november. like lali didi said no one understands the emotional battle within me. it's true. so true. i hope i can last long. i really hope so. just try and be me for a day.. then u will understand... i just cried till my eyes went red..